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Don't let me go
I know it seems like i want to separate from you all the time. I know you blame yourself, and you think you're not trying hard enough. That isn't true. That's just me trying to control the damage i do. But i don't want you to go anywhere. I don't want you to stop loving me. Please don't ever stop reaching for my hand because i know you do so much for me, so i wanna be able to make you happy even if i wanna go away somewhere. Don't let me go because i really need you and i don't want to disappear as much as i say i do. I only say that i want to hurt myself because i have this feeling inside me that i can't give you anything worthwhile, but you still hold onto me. I know it's tiring but please don't let go of me. It makes me so happy that i can be close to you and that you care about me. You mean so much to me that when i cry around you, i'm crying because i think i could hurt you with my selfishness. The only time i'll ever really die is when you can't hold on to me anymore. That's the
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Jealousy
Do you think it's ok for you to just do something like that? How could you? I don't understand why. Why it's so easy for you to hurt others. There's no remorse in you. No regret. No willingness to understand what you've done wrong. As if it was ok to do what you have done. I. I am jealous. I've always known that hurting others made people feel good. I know why it feels good. But i was scared. Before i got to this point i thought hurting others was an unforgivable act. To hurt someone? Purposefully? The prior me, the innocent me, had to find a way to grasp the abstract idea that hurting others was ok. But the me now, is filled with envy. Because i can't hurt people the way you hurt them. You find ways and excuses to make it seem like the pain you caused was justified. I'm different than you. I wanna wallow in the degradation of my humanity. I want the hurt i cause to push me into a state of derangement. I wanna topple over into the void. My demons are on i higher tier than your demons.
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An Amy X Tails fic. Chap 1
The pink hedgehog had finally made it to her destination after about a 15 minute trek along the dirt pathway that led to her quarry's house. The pink hedgehog considered walking up and knocking on the front door. In the end she decided not to. Her guts told her exactly where her prey would be. She'd known him for to long now to think that he would be spending his time not doing what he loved. It was honestly against his nature to . "Adorable" she thought as she made her way to the back of the house. Thinking about how passionate he was over his talents made him seem that much more endearing to her. Those thoughts gave cause to a little sigh then to a small smile as she continued on. After turning the corner, her sight had landed on the red double doors that led to the basement or underground shelters that most mobians had in case of an emergency. Everyone, knew that something catastrophic could happen at any moment to their home, so it was best to have a safe haven you could keep your
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Hello? Are you there? Did you go anywhere? Huh, well that just seems irresponsible on your part. You should take notes from all those movies that show the hero/villain surviving, due to the fact no one ever makes sure the corpse stays still for long enough. Because i'm still here. My body's still twitching, because my brain won't shut off from the lack of oxygen that is being denied access to it. I guess that's on account of the fact that all of me is strewn everywhere, in every which way. Jesus, it looks like I've been pulled apart from the seams. As if someone wanted to cause as much pain as possible by carefully unraveling a voodoo doll. Well damn. You took your sweet time with it. Had your fun, did you? Good for you. I'm glad you enjoyed it. But it doesn't really matter anyway. Because believe me I'm sewing myself back together. I'm probably gonna come out all wrong since i don't know how to stitch the pieces right. Nevertheless, I sit here and spindle the thread. Most of the threa
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Don't blame me for you caring about me ~Godofpeace
You want me to live? YOU WANT ME TO LIVE? Are you out of your FUCKING mind? You're not dragging me through this with you. You don't understand. Breathing, you know breathing? Breathing fucking HURTS me. You're not taking me through the ringer any longer. I'm not gonna make. I don't wanna make it. I can't feel, like i used to feel. I can never feel as if i'm even HUMAN anymore. God i wish i was nothing. I wish i was the literal embodiment of emptiness. The deity. The god of it. Death seems like the only way i can rip myself out of this mortal plane and ascend my throne of un-life. I've got plans. You can't deter me. It's not my fault if you gave birth, befriended, loved, or have desired to be by my side through life. It's not my fault if you wanted to see me through this. I've made other arrangements. Everything that is wrong with me, says to me, that it will all start to feel good to me if go into the dark. It's calling me.
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The screaming
I know it hurts. Everyone knows that it hurts. Honestly tho, it doesn't matter if it hurts. Because even if you scream, the sounds of agony can easily be replaced by the sounds of silence. Once you realize that, the pain will never be able to corrupt you again. The pain can no longer change you. You're past the point of hoping someone will listen and save you. Spare you. And once you've gone past that point, screaming just seems tiring. It seems like too much effort. There's nothing for you to scream for. Once you recognize what kind of reality you live in, you fucking die. It's silly that the departed try to reach out to others still alive using the pain filled and withered echoes of their voices. Do they think someone willing to hear them will come along and change something for them? Make it better for them? Can't they realize what they are now? It's better not to give them that false hope. That's why all the screechings, of all the corpses in the world still sound like silence. It
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Chapter 0: It's the damn prologue
Hey you. Yeah you. Yeah all of you. Do you mind if I ask you a question? Do you wanna go somewhere? Not like on a date or anything, just in general. Do you want to go somewhere? Somewhere else, somewhere away from all your problems? I know you do. You always wanted to be somewhere else haven't you? Somewhere where you can feel better about yourself. A place where the entire fucking environment makes you feel like you have at least some type of potential. Like, you have a chance to be happy because you're finally getting all that you wanted, all that you felt that you deserved. Is that where you wanted to be? Is that where you wanted to go? Are you sure? God look at me, i'm asking so many damn questions. Sorry. I just really wanted to know if you felt like me. Do you? Do you feel like me? Well it doesn't really matter. You're here now (kinda) I guess. Fuck, I keep just droning on and on. It's time to focus. Back to my first question. Do you want to go somewhere? Well if you're here..
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I know it seems like i want to separate from you all the time. I know you blame yourself, and you think you're not trying hard enough. That isn't true. That's just me trying to control the damage i do. But i don't want you to go anywhere. I don't want you to stop loving me. Please don't ever stop reaching for my hand because i know you do so much for me, so i wanna be able to make you happy even if i wanna go away somewhere. Don't let me go because i really need you and i don't want to disappear as much as i say i do. I only say that i want to hurt myself because i have this feeling inside me that i can't give you anything worthwhile, but you still hold onto me. I know it's tiring but please don't let go of me. It makes me so happy that i can be close to you and that you care about me. You mean so much to me that when i cry around you, i'm crying because i think i could hurt you with my selfishness. The only time i'll ever really die is when you can't hold on to me anymore. That's the only kind of death that scares me.
Don't let me go
Real emotional this one
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Do you think it's ok for you to just do something like that? How could you? I don't understand why. Why it's so easy for you to hurt others. There's no remorse in you. No regret. No willingness to understand what you've done wrong. As if it was ok to do what you have done. I. I am jealous. I've always known that hurting others made people feel good. I know why it feels good. But i was scared. Before i got to this point i thought hurting others was an unforgivable act. To hurt someone? Purposefully? The prior me, the innocent me, had to find a way to grasp the abstract idea that hurting others was ok. But the me now, is filled with envy. Because i can't hurt people the way you hurt them. You find ways and excuses to make it seem like the pain you caused was justified. I'm different than you. I wanna wallow in the degradation of my humanity. I want the hurt i cause to push me into a state of derangement. I wanna topple over into the void. My demons are on i higher tier than your demons. You hurt to cover your self esteem issues and mentally put yourself above another person. Petty. You're fucking petty. We don't have the same demons. We don't have the same voices in our heads. It's alright that you can let your inner self run amok in this world. All that's inside you is nothing but something akin to a parasitic disgusting worm. But i can never unlock my cage. I've done it before. I can never do so again. Things escalate to quickly. Things get to intense. Things go to wrong. To many people end up crying. But not the people to see tears from. My inner self is a rabbid dog wishing it could burn this fucking world to the ground. Because of that i can never feel the way you do. The satisfaction you get hurt from someone isn't enough for me. You can get that rush from putting people down. I'll only ever get that thrill be turning people into mutilated corpses and dust. It's not fair. You have leeway to be the bad guy because you're tyranny is at best an annoyance. I'm forced to be a good person because i'm a cataclysm and i can do so much more damage than you could ever hope to. You'd better pray to god that i take these pills to silence the envious voices within me.
Jealousy
another one - DJ Khalid 
All hail the demon within you. Make them pray that the tables never turn
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The pink hedgehog had finally made it to her destination after about a 15 minute trek along the dirt pathway that led to her quarry's house. The pink hedgehog considered walking up and knocking on the front door. In the end she decided not to. Her guts told her exactly where her prey would be. She'd known him for to long now to think that he would be spending his time not doing what he loved. It was honestly against his nature to . "Adorable" she thought as she made her way to the back of the house. Thinking about how passionate he was over his talents made him seem that much more endearing to her. Those thoughts gave cause to a little sigh then to a small smile as she continued on. After turning the corner, her sight had landed on the red double doors that led to the basement or underground shelters that most mobians had in case of an emergency. Everyone, knew that something catastrophic could happen at any moment to their home, so it was best to have a safe haven you could keep your loved ones tucked away and safe if such an event occurred. Times were tough, even if eggman wasn't a problem to deal with at the moment. Just because old man egg head had gone back into hiding once again, didn't mean there would be a complete stop of disasters inflicted upon mobius. Albeit, there was a significant decrease of said disasters after he slid back into obscurity. She inspected the doors leading underground and knew that they were more than they appeared to be. First, she noticed the sturdiness of the said doors. Looking like the alloys that make up the planes, airships, and weapons she and her teammates were accustomed to using in their adventures. Secondly, she noticed the advanced looking keypad that were attached to the front of the doors. It was out of the question to try and guess the code. The pink hedgehog did NOT have that kind of patience for any of that. Besides, she was feeling mischievous today. So, it looked the sleek little keypad would be having a date with her Trusty hammer. So, after EXPERTLY dealing with the security measures with no trouble, the pink hedgehog walked down the unguarded steps with hammer raised over her shoulder in smug triumph. She hopped off the last step and did a small one footed twirl before before grabbing the basement door's handle and slowly turning it. She opened the lab door as quietly as she could so that she wouldn't attract the attention of the her game just yet. She then tried to ever gradually edge the door closed . Making sure to create as little noise as possible, she then turned around with a swish and raised her hammer over her shoulder once more. She was then greeted with the full view of something just perfect. The image of him reaching up to grab something with his other hand wiping the sweat off his brow. Not to mention how his cute butt was just calling for her to give a little pinch. The pink hedgehog had successfully tracked her prey. And she had him right where she wanted him. With no idea of what he was in for today. She waited, watching his movements. Hoping for her moment spring into the action. She didn't want to scare him with a surprise clinging. She was past that. She had learned there was much more satisfaction in the hunt after patience rewarded her for her efforts. After seconds that lasted hours for her, the pink hedgehog was given her due. The look on his stunned face when he turned around and saw the pink hedgehog there, standing in mock innocence with her hammer cradled over shoulder and free hand on her hip. She could had stop the look she gave him even if she try. It was just to much. Then he spoke "Amy? why didn't you tell me you were coming over" he said rubbing the back of his head. " I would've...you know, prepared or something. It could have been a date night. Now i'm all dirty and stuff" He took a moment to clear his throat. " I guess i'd better go wash up." While he said all this he couldn't raise his eyes to meet hers. He wouldn't have been able to handle it. He was already blushing furiously as it was trying took make sure he kept a straight face the entire time without looking to nervous. That look she was giving him was killing him. While the pink hedgehogs prey was attempting to keep his wits together, she on the other hand was falling apart trying not to squeal at the sight of him becoming so out of whack just because of them being in the same proximity. It was beyond what she had expected his reaction to be and she thinking of all the ways she could play this out between the two of them. She couldn't think of anything. But she decided to go in for the kill anyway. "Well hey there smarty pants" She said in a tone covered in flirtation. " I see you've been busy today." Although they couldn't make eye contact because of his inability to look directly at her, the pink hedgehog had no problem taking in the vulpine male before her. "You know, it's been what, 2 days since we've seen each other? And I've just gotten kinda lonely without my cute boyfriend around to make the days go by. It's been a real effort not to come here and take you away from your workshop to spend some quality time together. But i knew you've been wanting to finish what you started a week ago. That thing you were sooooooooo, excited about. So i waited, but now, i'm waited out. Won't you spend some time with me? Hmmmm?" The pink hedgehog waltzed all the way to the other side of the room to get closer to the yellow fox. Those words she spoke to him he knew had a devilish undertone to them. The yellow fox wasn't 100% sure what quality time entailed, but the general idea was that he would be out of breath in a matter of moments. He was already running pretty low on exchange by the time she had come close enough for their foreheads to touch. It was true that he had wanted to make sure his project had been dealt with, but for 2 days, he had missed her as well. The sunshine just wasn't as bright, and the moon never cast it's light on something that seemed as pretty as she was. But he didn't want to admit that. She was already having all the fun and had the whole situation under her control. The yellow fox knew the pink hedgehog would tease him relentlessly with all manners of tactics if he simply gave in. So he had to say something that would cause an reaction from her that were similar to his own. "Huh? well it depends. does spending time mean i get to cop a feel?" For a brief moment neither of them said anything. The pink hedgehog had looked up with surprise at him. The yellow fox had looked up at her and was surprised with himself. He couldn't believe he had just said that. He was berating himself non-stop in the seconds that followed inside his mind. While the yellow fox beat himself down into a pulp in his imagination, the pink hedgehog was to stunned for words. Shocked at the crudeness of the words. But after a moment, she suddenly started to laugh. The laughter then turned into a fit of giggles and she had to hold her stomach to keep herself standing up. "Oh my god. You little perv. Where did that come from?"  The pink hedgehog managed to say through her giggle fit. "WELL...it's just-I don't know. You're the one always making those really dirty jokes." The yellow fox responded with embarrassment emanating out of him. "Dirty? My jokes aren't dirty i'll have you know. The proper term is saucy when it concerns a lady and her risk'e sense of humor, mister." The pink hedgehog shot back with a know it all look on her face. "Pffffftt. Whatever. We both know what kind of perverted thoughts you have hiding in that mind of yours. I bet you would've have jumped at the chance to say things like that if you and sonic had ever dated." The yellow fox huffed. "Oh my gooooooooooooooood. Why do you have to keep bringing stuff like that up. That was so long ago. It was a tiny crush." The pink hedgehog tried to feign innocence. "Long ago? That was two months ago. If i remember correctly, you had devoted your undying love to him. Am i correct? The yellow fox retorted. "What? No. maybe. Yes. But that's beside the point. What's it to you? Are you still jealous? Is that it? You afraid of cute little ol me being swept away by someone else? Well i can't blame you. I am quite the catch." Said the pink hedgehog smugly. At this point there was only one thing the yellow fox had as a weapon to defend against the pink hedgehog's onslaught of words. A small peck on the cheek ought to wipe the self-satisfied countenance off her face. But that kiss would set off a chain of events he could not have prepared for.
An Amy X Tails fic. Chap 1
I ship that i wanted more support for, for the longest time. Now that I've started writing random shit on the internet i have the will to contribute to what means the most to me. Fictional relationships between fictional creatures and people in all types of media. It has begun.
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I'm a box now. Look at the squiggly motherfucker. Their so happy being a box. With regular stupid box eye and a stupid box eye that's supposed to look like a an eye from tokyo ghoul. I repeat. I am box now.
Hello? Are you there? Did you go anywhere? Huh, well that just seems irresponsible on your part. You should take notes from all those movies that show the hero/villain surviving, due to the fact no one ever makes sure the corpse stays still for long enough. Because i'm still here. My body's still twitching, because my brain won't shut off from the lack of oxygen that is being denied access to it. I guess that's on account of the fact that all of me is strewn everywhere, in every which way. Jesus, it looks like I've been pulled apart from the seams. As if someone wanted to cause as much pain as possible by carefully unraveling a voodoo doll. Well damn. You took your sweet time with it. Had your fun, did you? Good for you. I'm glad you enjoyed it. But it doesn't really matter anyway. Because believe me I'm sewing myself back together. I'm probably gonna come out all wrong since i don't know how to stitch the pieces right. Nevertheless, I sit here and spindle the thread. Most of the thread i make will be to close my wounds. However, i'm saving some to use as something to strangle you with. Knit one, pearl two bitch, i'm sewing myself together.
Because. I'm. Still. Here.   
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This one was just spur of the moment. I forget what inspired me to make this. I can't remember. Shrug 
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Remember when i said i would finish that chapter? I LIED. I am a dummy!  I'm sorry. Like i said, i'm lazy. BUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUT, I just finished watching assassination classroom all the way through and just found out The familiar of zero has a FUCKTON of more seasons because i stopped watching it years ago cause i thought it had ended. GOOD NEWS, it did not. So i am in high spirits and will be finish the chapter i had started on after i read a Wildehopps fanfiction real quick. Clap Clap Clap neat. 

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